to love, only not to be loved

to feel, only not to be felt

to be full, only to be empty

to know, only to wish to forget

to want, only to need you

to be closer, only to distance myself

to be bright, only to crave night time

to be solitary, only to feel lonely

to be noticed, only to feel invisible

to love, only wanting to love again and again and again…

what is needed, only to not be gained