Mask Off.

 lately, i’ve been masking the emotions that are ingrained in me, its exhausting. i want someone to tell me its okay, but all i ever been doing is doing the telling. lately, i’ve been ignoring how i feel just so i can get through my days, just so i can say i’m okay. i have been lacking the love that i am craving. i am starving of love. i’m deprived of love. self love and self strength. i feel weak today. i am tired. the day before and two days before that. i find myself constantly boxed in. i want to be away from myself for awhile. just a little awhile. sometimes i feel i am too self-destructive. i am not ashamed that sometimes i do need someone to save me. but i dont want just anyone to save me. i’m picky when i reveal myself nakedly through emotions to someone. a lot aren’t worthy of what i express on a level higher than this, so i suffer. i feel more than i think i can handle. i serve a different purpose. its been pretty hard to reach out to people. i’m so indulged in myself. its frightening as i let my emotions linger, but i just want to take off this mask for some time….